The ramblings of a man touched by God


I know my life has not been easy. Heck, I do not wish my life on anyone. The tears I have shed must fill kegs up in heaven – God gave up on bottles with me. The pain I have suffered would kill most men. Throw on the struggles, disappointments and broken hearts and you got this man. Warts, scars and all. (to borrow a term from a friend)

But one thing I do know. Like Job I can honestly say with full conviction and with all my heart:

“Though He slay me, yet I will trust in Him”. (Job 13:15 KJV)

My trust in God even freaks me out sometimes. With so many friends leaving my life this year, with the career changes, with the challenges of being a single dad, with the sleepless nights up with my handicapped daughter – all I can cling to is Jesus and my ruthless trust in God.

Lord – I do not know what you have in store for me. You have taken so much from me this year already, but I TRUST YOU. I trust that YOU know what is best for me.

Those I have loved are gone; those that I cared about deeply are gone.
Yet I will trust in You for Love.

What else do you require of me this year? Do I have anything else to give?
Yet I will trust in You for strength.

My children still grieve the loss of their mother,
Yet I will trust in You to heal their hearts.

Sometimes I feel that I cannot go on one more day,
Yet I will trust in You for perseverance.

My heart has been ripped apart this year,
Yet I will trust in You to put it back together once again.

My first-born son is on a dangerous path of self-destruction,
Yet I will trust in You to rescue him.

My baby boy is on his own for the first time in a strange town,
Yet I will trust in You to protect him

The new “tent making” business is starting slow,
Yet I will trust in You to provide for us.

Some “friends” have left this year,
Yet I will trust in You for fellowship.

I thank You for the friends that have remained to encourage, listen and be that brother/sister who does not judge my faults.

And I thank You for those that have left – keep Your Hand upon them and use them to Your Glory.

This verse in Job is my verse for this year – and most likely, for the rest of my time here on earth. I accept that. I have peace with that – because like Peter I can say:

“Lord, to whom shall we go? You have words of eternal life. We have believed and have come to know that You are the Holy One of God.” (John 6:68-69 NASB)

Where else can I go? Whom else can I truly trust? For 30 years, You have put your hand upon my life, your Words upon my lips and Your Spirit in my soul. Where else would I go Jesus?

You are stuck with me.

I lay down all my Isaac’s as a sacrifice. Everything and everyone I hold dear to me. You have taken so very much this year already. Now you can have the rest.

Yet I will trust in You……

RiderforJC – A follower of Jesus Christ by the Grace of God


A wonderful friend of mine sent this to me this week. It spoke volumes to my life – my past, my hurts, my scars, my tears. I want to share it with you.

By T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you:
Let them walk.
I don’t want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you let them walk.

Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can’t make them stay.
And it doesn’t mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you’ve got to know when people’s part in your story is over so that you don’t keep trying to raise the dead. You’ve got to know when it’s dead.

You’ve got to know when it’s over. Let me tell you something. I’ve got the gift of good-bye. It’s the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It’s not that I’m hateful, it’s that I’m faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He’ll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don’t need it. Stop begging people to stay.
If you are holding on to something that doesn’t belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to……
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains……
If someone can’t treat you right, love you back, and see your
If someone has angered you.
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge……
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction…..
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or
If you have a bad attitude……
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better……
If you’re stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new
level in Him…….
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship…
If you keep trying to help someone who won’t even try to help
If you’re feeling depressed and stressed ……..
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling
yourself and God is saying “take your hands off of it,” then you need to…..
Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing…
Get Right or Get Left- think about it, and then

“The Battle is the Lord’s!”

May God grant us the gift of good-bye. And may we be open to the new things He wants to do in our lives. Today is a new day. The future is bright -lit by the light from the eyes of Jesus. Stop looking back. Stop thinking “what if” or “if only I had…”.
To all those who have walked out of my life this year – Go with God. Our story is over. I will always treasure the time we spent together walking along the same path. You will always be in my prayers. For a time, God allowed our “stories” to overlap each other and that was a blessing for me. I ask forgiveness for those I have hurt and I forgive those that have hurt me. God is greater then each of us, and greater than the pain we caused each other.

I will see you in Heaven. And all this will be forgotten. We will again be best friends praising God together.

RiderforJC – A follower of Jesus Christ by the Grace of God


I love songwriters. And singers who can bring those words to life. George Strait is one of my favorites – talented yet appearing so humble.
Sometimes life is a box that you have to enter a check mark in. Certainly, love is like that expressed in this chorus:

“Do you love me, do you wanna be my friend?
And if you do, well then dont be afraid to take me by the hand
If you want to.
I think this is how love goes, check yes or no.”

(Chorus from the song “Check yes or no” by George Strait)

If you don’t know the song, it’s written from the viewpoint of a 3rd grader. The little girl passed a note with the above words on it to the boy she liked in class. I like the “I THINK this is how love goes…..” part.

The more I think I know about love, the more I find out I am just delusional and stupid. I truly know nothing. How exactly does love “go”?

I have different views of love.
Certainly, the most appealing to me is God’s Agape love. That unconditional love that He has for us. When I try to grasp the concept of it, I always fall short. But then God gave me someone who shows me this love every day – my daughter Lisa. You see, Lisa is profoundly mentally handicapped. But her heart is not. God compensated for her mental deficiency by expanding her heart. In her eyes, I can do no wrong. Now here is the most amazing thing – in her eyes, YOU can do no wrong either. And no you cannot have her – get your own gift from God!!!

Then I see another kind of love – that brotherly love. I know my brothers and sisters in the Lord have my back – or they should have it. Truly that is their responsibility as part of the family. I know brothers who will be there for me in my most dire times of need. They will protect, comfort and provide. And I will do the same if I can.

Now the most difficult kind of love – the elusive “being in Love” with another person. I have felt this love before – but it was never perfect. What I mean by that is that it was never returned 100%. It seems in my relationships, I gave 100% and got back, maybe 70% – most of the time 30%. Eventually, I had nothing more to give – I was empty.
I don’t think this is how love is suppose to go. But heck, I could be wrong.
I do not want a “perfect” love – I already have that with God and with my daughter. But I want the kind of love that is mutual, the kind of love that excites, that thrills, that NO MATTER WHAT – never lets go.
I am not a perfect man. Hell, I am still rough around the edges, still stupid sometimes, still talk without thinking, still selfish at times. But I know one thing about me – I know without a doubt that I can love someone with all my heart and show them that love each and every day.
And protect them, encourage them and be their biggest cheerleader. Wipe away all the past tears and never put another one on their face again.
No one could ever love them more – except for God.

I would rather be alone then settle for less than that. Check the box…….

RiderforJC – A follower of Jesus Christ by the Grace of God


Recently, a good friend of mine told me a story about taking her son, Zach, to church. Zac is your typical young adult, early 20’s with his own fashion sense. (Sounds like me, except add 25 years).
I have said before, that “church” today would hold very little for me if I weren’t a follower of Jesus. Heck, some churches still hold little for me given they serve babies milk and do not teach from the power of the Word of God. But that’s another story.

Upon entering the church, an elder asked Zac to remove his baseball hat. Heck, wearing a baseball hat for any man means only one thing – we didn’t do our hair today (like I have that problem!). How traumatic is it to remove your hat when you know you got bedhead or now worse – bedhathead (Yes, my own created word!!).

So Zac removed his hat out of respect, looked at his mom and said “Now you know why I hate coming to church”.

And in Heaven, Jesus wept. (John 11:35 NASB)

How sad it is when we judge people based on the clothes they wear. Or worse yet, make them conform to our comfortable churchology (yeah, another created word).

Does God care about hats? Heck, I can make an Old Testament argument that Zach was following the law in regards to head-coverings. But I do not want to debate such a stupid issue.

Zac, I respect you for removing your hat out of respect for that man, for “church” and for your mom. But please do not think for a minute that that directive was coming from a biblical base. It was not. That, my brother, is doctrine – not to be confused in any way with the Word of God.

Why do we judge people for what they wear? For how their hair is arranged (Shaved, long, tie-died, whatever); …even for what church doctrines they believe.

Listen up and hear this well……
God does not care about your church doctrine.
God does not care about you wearing a hat in church.
God does not care about what clothes you wear.
God does not care about what your hair looks like.
Or if you have tattoos.
Or if you have piercings.
Or if you pray to Mary.
Or if you even go to church.

For time and time again, I will point you to the following scripture:

“For God sees not as man sees. For man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart. “ (1Samuel 16:7 NASB)

God sees through all the superficial things we do or are. He sees through the masks we wear. The games we play. The people we try to impress with who we are, who we say we are, or with what we have.

The only thing that matters is where is your heart in relation to Jesus Christ.

…”God looks at the heart”……

For some, that fact is scary. To others, it is relief.
I want God to see my heart – not always my words, certainly many times not my actions, not even my motives. I want Him to see my heart. For I love Him more than I can say, more than I can express, more than I can ever put into actions.

And Zac, if I ever get the privilege of worshiping with you, let’s both leave our hats on and simply show God our hearts. That, my brother, is all that matters to Him.

RIderforJC and Zac – followers of Jesus Christ by the Grace of God


This blog is dedicated to all those warrior rebels for Jesus who have endured the valleys of their spiritual life so as to better enjoy the mountaintop experience with God.

When I review my spiritual life, I see myself in valleys mostly. It is here that God has humbled me, taught me, and nurtured me. It is in the valley that I have endured much, suffered much and felt God’s love deeply.

The mountain top experiences have been refreshing – but like Peter found out, we cannot reside there. They are for a moment. My mountaintop experiences with God have given me the reassurance of His Presence. They are the dessert of the event – but not the nutrition my soul needs.

Some churches only focus on the mountaintop – like Peter they attempt to build houses on the mountaintop. They focus on the feeling good part of Jesus, the ”wow” factor. Certainly, Jesus is WOW. But Jesus is so much more.

Yet, we have been called to be lights to a dying world. Trust me on this, there are no sinners on the mountaintop. That is why we cannot stay there. We can experience it, but we cannot dwell on the mountain. Even Moses came off the mountain.

So here we are in the valley of life. Look around you. Take in what God is showing you. Stop looking at the mountaintop. Jesus is here in the valley too. Among His creation, among the sinners and the sick. Among the losers of life, the down and out, the lost.

Here in the valley is the work we are called to do.

Sometimes in my life, the valley seems endless. I yearn for the mountaintop. I desire to set up camp up there – the valley seems endless and barren. The burden is great. My body is broken and bleeding, my spirit is weak, my mind is doubting.

Then I remember my Lord and His strength. I remember the words of encouragement that He gave throughout the scriptures. And all He asks me is to trust Him to make it through this day.

One day.
I can endure for one day.

In my 30 years of following Jesus, I have never known the meaning of “manna” more than I know the past few years. Manna is simply trusting God to provide ALL things – spiritual, physical and emotional.

And manna is only found in the valleys.

So here in the valleys, we see two things that are not on the mountaintop. Sinners and Manna. This is why we are in the valleys. To trust Him and to save others..

Come down from the mountaintops. God will supply your manna. And God will supply those divine appointments with the sinners and the lost that need to hear about Jesus.

This is the valley of the warrior – the valley of the rebels for Jesus.

riderforJC –A follower of Jesus Christ by the Grace of God


This blog was inspired and is co-written by a good friend of mine whom I simply adore as a person, as a woman, and as a fellow rebel for Jesus.
There are two distinct views here – how the bride sees herself (she wrote this) and how her future groom sees her (my input).

I am working and doing my chores here at home and was just thinking about all I need to get done today and began to think about the Bride of Christ and what that means. Normally when you think of a bride, you think of a beautiful, well-manicured, sweetly scented, perfectly adorned woman who is at her loveliest. As I’ve been working today, I was thinking about we as the Bride and got a totally different picture. I saw a woman tending the home until her groom comes for her. This woman did not look so perfectly manicured, but quite the opposite. I see a tired, worn-down face from late nights of praying and waiting for her groom. I see hurt and humility in her eyes as others look at her pitifully, thinking she will always be alone and without help from a husband. I see fingernails that are ragged and calluses on her hands from the hard work she has to do. I see hair that needs washing and combing. I see someone so spent, in every human way, that each day’s hope and strength come only from His letters. Letters that He is coming. Letters that there will come that day, when others will see that The King Himself has come for her. That her labor is done. This Bride of Christ is a lady that is one tough cookie. She is not on the couch eating chocolate. She carries a sword-His sword. She is no stranger to blood, sweat, or tears. This bride is a warrior – with strength and teachings by her future husband on ways to hold off the enemies until He comes home. This bride is gritty and grimy. This bride is a true ‘helper’.

The groom sees her differently than she sees herself or others see her. He sees the most incredibly beautiful woman – a woman who He has sacrificed all for. A woman who – in His eyes – is perfect.

As Solomon says in his song “You are altogether beautiful, my darling, and there is no blemish in you” (SoS 4:7 NASB).

To Him, she is adorned with His robes, with His jewels, with the light of His face.
He knows her labor, her perseverance, her trials. He knows her tears for He has stored each last tear in a bottle. He knows her weakness because she has run to Him countless times when she needed strength.
But most of all, He knows her Love – For she loves Him because He first loved Her, and gave all for her. Her love for Him is not perfected yet- but this does not change His love for her. She perseveres and He loves her so unconditionally knowing her weaknesses and her lack of faith.

Yes, she is a tough cookie….but she melts at His word and His touch…….and she never gives up hope that He will come for her….irregardless of what others say or even when her faith grows dim.

We see ourselves totally different than how Jesus sees us. His love for us is perfect, ruthless, uncompromising, forgiving. He sees us as His bride – beautiful, loving, and worthy. Yes, worthy. Do we ever feel worthy of that kind of Love? I sure do not. Yet I know His love for me and you is beyond measure, beyond our human understanding.

“Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things. Love never fails.” (1 Cor. 13:7-8)

Our prayer today is that the Lord will strengthen you to maintain such a noble task as His Bride and that you would know how deeply you are loved by Him.

Two Rebels for Jesus by the Grace of God


“But when you present the blind for sacrifice, is it not evil? And when you present the lame and sick, is it not evil?” Malachi 1:8 NASB

In this book, the priests were giving God the scraps, the rejects and keeping the best, the first fruits, for themselves.

Don’t we do that today? We make time for fellowship, work, eating, checking our email, watching some TV and listening to music. Then we throw God the last 5 minutes of our day and call it worship!! SHAME ON US!! (Yes I said US as I am guilty of that too).

We “worship” our Lord God by giving Him the very scraps of our lives – of course, except on Sundays when we become incredibly spiritual!

This is not a relationship – it’s a joke.
This is not worship – it’s playing a game.

We need to get back to the greatest commandment that Jesus spoke of – “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul and with all your mind”.

No more half-hearted devotion

No more sharing our soul with our desires

No more clouding our mind with inconsequential things

Love the Lord.
With all that is in you.
With every breath
With every heartbeat
With every bit of strength

Today, let’s resolve to give Jesus our best
The best part of our day!
The most energy!!
The most thought!!

The special time alone with Him

He truly wants to spend time with us. Nothing we do could be more important.

RiderforJC – A follower of Jesus Christ by the Grace of God


Rebels come from all walks of life. Some are bikers, some are bankers, teachers, single moms, artists, ex-addicts and even ex-nice guys.
Rebels believe that things need to change. Change that begins with one person saying there has to be a better way. And then pressing forward to blaze that new path. Rebels for Jesus choose to put Jesus first and foremost in their lives. Disregarding the doctrinal issues in the church or what the world thinks. The rebel for Jesus desires to live a life worthy of being a follower of Jesus yet with the knowledge that they have nothing to boast about because even the ability to follow Jesus is a gift from God.
Rebels may attend church for worship and fellowship. But their relationship with Jesus is a 24/7 thing. They eat, breathe, love, laugh and cry with their Lord.
If you are tired of the way things are going in your “christian” walk, we invite you to join us in the following creed. Its time to shed your “christianity” and become a follower of Jesus Christ- a true rebel for Him.

The Rebel’s Creed
We believe in One God revealed to us as God our Heavenly Father,
God the Son-Jesus Christ, and God the Spirit. We do not believe we will become “gods”.

We believe that God showed us His incredible Love for us by sending His only Son, Jesus, to die in our place as payment for our sins so that we can be made holy to Him.

Therefore, we believe in the forgiveness of sins being a free gift from God, accepted by faith alone. We can never earn this gift nor pay it back.

We believe in the Holy Spirit, who dwells inside everyone who believes and trusts in Jesus.

We believe in heaven and hell and that God alone has the last word on who goes where.

We believe in the Bible as the infallible Word of God. Nothing can be added to and nothing can be taken away from it. There are no more “revelation” books that follow the Bible.

We believe God loves and accepts everyone as they are. If He wants to change them, that is up to Him and not us. God cleans the fish He catches – we do not.

Because we have these beliefs, we desire to show the world what it means to follow Jesus by:


Rebels for Jesus – July 2007


Yeah, what a strange title. But I cannot think of anything more descriptive of the life with Jesus.

The Jesus of the Bible is so different than the Jesus being preached today on the pulpits. In fact, some preachers have forgotten who Jesus is. Their words are all about you feeling good about yourself.


I will be the first to tell you that Jesus loves you more than you will EVER comprehend. I will be the first to tell you that Jesus adores you, that you are the apple of His eyes.

Max Lucado said in one of his books that if God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it. I like that. You are in His wallet, on His refrigerator and your name is tattooed on Him right next to His Heart. (See, tattoos are not bad!)

Following Jesus is an adventure!! It is an incredible life!! Each day is a day of new discovery, seeing things through His eyes. Seeing the best in people and having His Heart for them.

In motorcycle ministry, we pray for “divine appointments” as we ride. That God would bring us into contact with people that need love, encouragement, and that need Jesus. The examples are endless on how God honored these prayers. Our prayer simply means for God to open our eyes.

The church shows us a kind, gentle, nice-guy Jesus.

I do not agree at all. Now don’t get me wrong, Jesus is certainly kind and gentle. But a nice guy? Not the way the church shows it.

The church today discounts the humanness of Jesus. And that is a huge mistake! The reason that Jesus became a man was for us to relate to Him.

We need to see the adventurous Jesus.

The Jesus who told stories AND jokes.
The Jesus who thumped Peter’s head whenever Peter said something stupid. Or simply told Peter he was a dork!

The Jesus who would say “open wide” and then tossed bits of bread into John’s mouth missing on purpose just to see John dive headfirst for it.

The Jesus who took the fish head and made it talk by moving its mouth.

The Jesus who gave the best bear hugs ever!

Jesus loved His creation. He saw the beauty He created in the flowers, the birds chirping, the sunrise and the moon light. He loved to hear the laughter of children – so full of life and unrestrained. Jesus enjoyed living among His creation.

See Jesus lived here as a human man. Yet He was also 100% God at the time.

We need to get back to seeing Jesus as the disciples saw Him and related to Him.

Jesus is cool. Don’t let anyone tell you differently. And following Him is an adventure worth living!


Jesus said “ I am the way, and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father but through Me.” John 14:6 NASB

Isn’t that what we all want? We are searching for the way – the way out, the way in, the way that brings happiness, success, family, peace, freedom from the past, a way to a bright future. We try so many different things to accomplish this. The proverbial “sex, drugs and rock and roll” brought temporary pleasure – until we woke up wondering who that person was laying beside us, with a headache or the low of coming down off the drugs.

Ok, well rock and roll is still cool.

Truth seems to change depending on what benefits it has to someone. Politicians change the truth all the time with their double speak. Why can’t someone say something and mean it and not back down when confronted?
“You want the truth? You can’t handle the truth!” Maybe that’s the reason. We truly cannot handle it.

Others try ways to find truth in man’s wisdom. Some groups are now claiming a new set of scriptures handed down by angelic beings through channeling. Man continues to complicate that which Jesus presented as so clear and simple.

“but God has chosen the foolish things of the world to shame the wise….”
1 COR 1:27 NASB

The life. Yes, sounds like a commercial “this is the life”. You are on a cruise ship, basking in the sun with a refreshing drink in one hand and a good book in the other – yes this is the life – until the ship docks and reality of work, kids, bills, laundry, cleaning and the boss slap you in the face back to reality. What a short-lived “life”.

What part of “I am the way and the truth and the life…” is so confusing?

The longer I know Jesus, the more simpler His words appear to me. Kids can understand this so well. “Cool- I have found the way, and the truth and the life and that is in Jesus. I accept that and I will follow Him.”
No wonder Jesus exhorted us to have child-like faith.

Truly, Jesus is all we need. He is the beginning and the end and He is the way, the truth and the life. Follow Jesus and He will never lead you astray.

In the darkness, Jesus says I am the Way – Follow Me.

When you don’t know what is true and what is false, Jesus says I am the Truth – listen to My Words.

When your life seems empty and you don’t want to go on – Jesus says I am the Life – in Me you will find your Life.

And if you are searching for God – Jesus says No one comes to the Father except through Me.

Forget the church doctrines, forget the companion books to the Bible, forget the TV preachers….Just look to Jesus.

Don’t let anyone fool you – there is no other way. Stop complicating your life. Jesus says “Follow Me”. What are you waiting for?


Maranatha – The Lord Cometh.

Every so often I hear Christians pray for Jesus to come back now. This always grieves my spirit. How selfish can one be to ask the Lord to come back this soon with so many who do not know Him?

Now I have never been a farmer, but I cannot imagine a farmer ceasing harvesting after only a small portion of his crop has been harvested.

In the same way, Jesus said, “The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Therefore, beseech the Lord of the harvest to send out workers into His harvest” (Matt. 9:37-38 NASB).

But to clearly see what Jesus saw, we need to read the verse before these two:

“Seeing the people, He felt compassion for them, because they were distressed and dispirited like sheep without a shepherd.” (Matt. 9:36 NASB)

The answer to the prayer by the disciples for more workers has been answered by God in the persons of you and me. WE are the workers that got requested!!

But our prayers have become “The work is too hard, Lord, just come back and get us. We are ready for your return.” Yeah, while millions perish in their sins. What good workers we are.

Jesus felt compassion for the people….

You see, compassion has to be FELT….it cannot be discussed, defined or debated.

And as Jesus felt that compassion for the lost, His solution was to direct his disciples to pray to HIM for more workers. Why didn’t Jesus just appoint more disciples? He could have made more disciples from the dirt on the ground and His breath. But His solution was to give it to the disciples. And to watch their faith grow as those prayers were answered. This is the “ask and you shall receive” promise. Notice it was not for a new Cadillac or sports car or even a Harley (although I could argue that a prayer for a Harley should take priority with God!). The prayer was for doing the Lord’s work. Saving souls. Mending the broken hearted. Giving people a future and a Hope.

Where is our compassion for the lost? For followers of Jesus Christ, we are shamed by the labor put forth by the Mormons and the Jehovah Witnesses. While I admit that they are driven by works rather than Grace, I admire their work ethic –however misdirected it is.

Oh that we would have the eyes of Jesus to “SEE the people and FEEL compassion for them”. And then to ACT in Love toward them with the foreknowledge that they are lost and hurting. Compassion will always See, Feel and then ACT. It becomes compassion when acted upon.

So the next time you hear someone say they wished that Jesus would come back soon, just remember this verse:

“The Lord is not slow about His promise, as some count slowness, but is patient toward you,not wishing for any to perish but for all to come to repentance.” (2Peter 3:9 NASB)

Interesting word in this scripture, the word “YOU” seems out of place doesn’t it? If you are indeed saved, then why would the Lord need to be patient toward you? Could it be that His patience toward you is BECAUSE He doesn’t wish for any to perish but for all to come to repentance? Sort of implies that it is YOUR responsibility to be sure that “all come to repentance” doesn’t it?


Father, forgive us for our selfishness.

Jesus please tarry.


Love… can be an incredible wondrous experience or it can be just another nasty 4-letter word.

If you have ever loved deeply, then you may have been hurt deeply. The depths of that pain only equal the heights of the joy of being in love. I pity the person who has no scars, has never experienced those gut-wrenching long nights that seemed to never end; or felt the relief that morning had broken and that that endless night was over.

Recently, I experienced that pain. You see, I loved deeply with all my heart. And that was a risk. The higher the risk, the greater the reward. I type this as my inner wounds continue to heal. I felt like a dog that was struck by a bulldozer limping off to find a safe place to lick my wounds and heal.

Will I love like that again? Yes. Will I be more “careful” next time? No I won’t. Yeah, I am nuts. But I cannot correlate “careful” with “Love”. Just seems that those two words do not mix well. Love is an adventure. It jumps in with both feet disregarding the depth of the water. Love never counts the cost. Love leans into the wind like Rose did on the Titanic. I would risk everything again for love. I will risk it all again. No doubt.

Love is what we all want. We want someone to accept us so much that they love every little thing about us. And the things they don’t really like, don’t really matter. And eventually those little things become endearing to them.

Clint Black sings a song that says, “ I don’t know where I end and you begin”. I want that kind of love again. I had it once. I will not settle for anything less.

Love is giving and expecting nothing back. Yeah, I know it is tough. We are so used to conditional love. I love you and you better love me back – OR ELSE! But God showed us unconditional love in the person of Jesus.

“For God so loved the world, that He gave…..”
John 3:16

See, love is a verb. It always acts. Love is always moving, never stagnant. Love should come with a warning label, we should have required tests on it like a driving course. Heck, some people should have to have a license to love because they have no clue how to accept it or return it.

But that still doesn’t scare me. God will just have to pick up the pieces of this heart again if I get hurt again. I trust Him to do that since He created me to love.

Get off the railing Rose, it is my turn.

RiderforJC – A follower of Jesus Christ by the Grace of God


I marvel at the thought that God has a heart. Having experienced the joys and the pains in my own heart, it saddens me to think that God could experience that pain but on a much greater scale.

I know I am trying to see the wonders of God through my inadequate, limited human brain. But that is all I have, so bear with me.

It was said about David that he was a man after God’s own heart. Brenning Manning in his book “Ruthless Trust” says that David “ravaged the heart of God with his unwavering trust.” WOW!! I want to ravish God’s heart! Can you even imagine that?

Trust. What an interesting word. Someone once told me that the word Trust in the Bible only is used in reference to God – never with man. I think that was David’s secret. He knew that man will always disappoint, but God could not. He would cease being God if He could.

All of heaven must rejoice when one person puts their wholehearted trust in God. I don’t think it happens that much. I say “I trust God” but do I really mean it? All the dollar bills I have in my pocket say “In God we trust”. Who is the “we” they are talking about?
I want to trust in God like David but there is a part of me who is always doubting – always thinking “well if God doesn’t act in this, what are my other options?”

I want to say like Job:
“Even though He slay me, yet will I trust Him”
Job 13:15 KJ

I want to ravish the heart of God by having unwavering, raw, bold, ruthless trust in Him!
And I know – without a single doubt- that God wants and desires this too.

Trust grows when we cut away the lifeboats in our life.
Trust grows when we let go of our security blankets, whatever those may be.
Trust is born in the valleys of our lives and savored on the mountaintops.

Let’s do something wild and crazy starting today. Let’s ravish God’s heart by putting our unwavering trust in Him in all things.

Heaven waits in anticipation.

RiderforJC – A follower of Jesus Christ by the Grace of God



Lately, I have felt a strong movement of God. A very strong presence and urging. I know others have felt it too in discussions and blogs I have read. Do you feel it? SOMETHING is going to happen. I do not know what it is. All I can do is share this with you.
I started this blog at the recommendation of a friend – now I know that it was God telling her to push me on this.
In the past few months, I have met too many Jesus warriors who are out of work yet God continues to provide for them. During this time off (and I am one of them), God has been preparing them for something. God always removed the obstacles and noise from people before He used them. Even Jesus removed Himself to spend time with God alone.

I also believe that the church is ill-prepared to enter this battle. This battle requires His people with the heart of David, the boldness of Peter, and the wisdom of Paul. In other words, it requires people led by and filled with His Spirit – yielding their desires and their future to Him.

No compromise. No discussion. God says Go. We Go!

God does not need ability. His Spirit will provide that. HE NEEDS MEN AND WOMEN WHO WILL LISTEN AND THEN MOVE!

No committee meetings. No business plans. No financial discussions.

We need to stop turning the things of God into a business. We need to strip ourselves of these “church” things and get back to the calling of Loving God and exercising that Love in ACTION.

Stop waiting for your “calling”. Stop making excuses.

What is the cost of one soul? To God – it was the price of His only Son Jesus. If that lost soul was your son or daugther, What price would you pay to be sure they knew about Jesus? What price would you pay to show them the Love of God that was shown to you?

Get Ready!! God is calling YOU. Are you ready to hear Him? Are you willing to Follow Jesus into battle?
If not – GET READY.
Start with prayer. And DO IT NOW!

Your brother in Christ Jesus by the Grace of God


Ever wonder what God sees? I know I do. I want to see how God sees the things I look at. Some of these things are so beautiful and incredible. Other things are just plain and not very exciting when I see them through my eyes. I mean the Grand Canyon is an awesome creation; the barren desert during the heat of the day is completely void of beauty.

How does God see me? When I look in the mirror, sometimes I like what I see but mostly I am wishing I was taller, had long hair like a rockstar, and had the body of Arnold.
For a woman, I can’t imagine what they wish for. But even the most physically beautiful woman wishes for a change in her appearance. Without that, Los Angeles would not be the capital for plastic surgery. We have this notion that “if only I could change this about me”, it would make me happy and people would like me more. How sad are we?

One of my favorite verses in the Bible is found in the first book of Samuel. It is the search by the messenger of God, Samuel, for the next king of Israel. Since the previous king was handsome, tall and strong; Samuel assumed that these were the traits that God would be looking for in the next king of Israel. So Samuel was searching for these physical traits in David’s brothers who were big and strong. David was just the little runt in the family. Samuel was certain that David’s older brother was the chosen of God.

But the eyes of God see things differently.

“But the Lord said to Samuel “Do not look at his appearance or at the height of his stature, for I have rejected him; For God sees not as man sees, for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”
(1 Samuel 16:7 NASB)

God knew David’s heart. That is what He saw. Something Samuel could not see.

Samuel saw a useless child.
God saw His warrior.

We need the Eyes of God in us.

We see a useless jawbone of a donkey.
God sees a weapon of war to be used for His purpose.

We see an old man, Abram, ready for death.
God sees His messenger in Abraham.

We see uneducated, stubborn impetuous Simon.
God sees Peter, the rock on which He would build His Church.

We see Saul, fervently attacking the new followers of Jesus.
God sees Paul, the man whom He would use to send the message of Jesus to the gentiles.

We see Jesus crucified; hung on a cross like a criminal.
God sees our Way to Him.

God always sees what the human eye cannot see.

You see ugliness or imperfection when you look in the mirror.
God sees one of His most beautiful creations. So valuable to Him that He gave the blood of His Son, Jesus, to bring you to Him.

You see fear.
God sees someone He can use for His glory.

You cry tears of sadness and pain.
God sees someone who is ready to turn to Him.

You see an uncertain future.
God sees the plan He has for you.

You see yourself as unloved and unwanted.
God sees His most loved creation. Someone He has pursued with His Love all your life. He wants you. No one will ever want you more.

And as He pursues you –He will always see your heart, just like He did with David.

May God give us His eyes to see what He sees.

RiderforJC – A follower of Jesus Christ by the Grace of God